As i sit here in my lonely chair
Saying to myself how life is so unfair
Feeling sorry for myself each passing day
Knowing i must free my mind and walk away.

From the painful memories that haunt me,
It chases me so relentlessly, i cannot flee.
Why do your vision always appear in mind
Why don't you let me search for the love i must find.

You will not let me be! its driving me insane!
I have no one to yell at, but you, your the one i blame!
Why you!!! couldn't god take me instead
Now all i do is cry and mourn in my bed.

I got all these pills in my hands...
I want to kill myself and be buried in the sands
I do not want to live anymore...
What reasons do i have to live for?!!?








without you in my life...............there's no point in living...



R.I.P 2/20/85-11/16/01

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i hope you aren't really thinking that right?
:sad:

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yea. however ways there may be, suicide isn't one of em. i don't want you to suffer in hell.

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wherever you go, whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

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:huh: hope you dun feel that way manG... it sux to lose someone close to you to something like suicide... makes you feel very crappy too... i mean basically what your saying by commitin suicide is that you had no hope... and the people you care for didn't give you the hope in life to choose life... sigh...

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haha..doode everyone chill..i'm not really gonna kill myself..lol..

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it was good. i see that you go for the depressing themes like me.....hehe.....

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I Don't know what is wrong, what is right
It makes no difference, they are the same things...
I don't know what to believe in, whom i can trust
There was no way to see, no way to prove that
Why do I have to wonder and wonder?
I don't know why, I don't know why, I don't know why
I don't know who my friends are, who my enemies are
They love me some, they cheat me some in the same way
Why do I have to live with them, why do I love them?
I really wish I could believe in your sweet sweet lies
I close my eyes and tears are falling
I really wish I could live alone with no one at all
I close my heart and dreams are tumbling
Sing, sing a fool's song I am a king without a kingdom
LaLaLa, I am a mother without a womb for my children
LaLaLaLa, I am a lover without a lover
oh..I am a foolish clown of the world..
I am a foolish clown of the world...

So.. I don't know what to believe in, Whom to rely on...
-Jaurim

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