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Posted by WhiteLee on 08-09-2002 02:36 AM:

the hardest thing

What's the hardest thing you and your family have been thru?
If it's too personal to you, then ya don't have to say it. But for the ones who wish to, share all.

Here's mine:
I was around 8 when my mom almost died.
She had kidney/pancreas transplant because of her diabetes.
She had to have the surgery in another state and every weekend our family would go up and see her (long drive too).
the pancreas didn't work and she stayed in the hospital for months and months.
When she'd have to go back to the hospital, my heart would break every time.
it's still not easy to say this. let alone type it. but oh well. *tear

well, taht's about as detailed as i'll get.
if ya wanna share, share.

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Posted by Nojeel on 08-09-2002 02:42 AM:

way too much to say..my family's life has been hell..so has my own life..i can truly say that i've been through hell and back...and kinda still in the pits of hell...

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Posted by UnisMuiMui on 08-09-2002 05:12 AM:

she was my fave grandma. i was one of her favorites too. when i was little, i lived in singapore and both my parents worked so my grandma (my mom's adoptive mother) took care of me. i remember how she use to hold my hand and take me to the morning market places and buy me my fave breakfast! we've had many, many special memories.....
but when i moved to america, i kinda lost in touch wit her. 3 years ago i had a chance to go on a tour to Europe. i always wanted to go. i also had a chance to go singapore wit my mom and my sisters to visit my grandma who diagnosed wit ear cancer. it was a tough decision, but i chose to go to Europe since my mom said we'll go to singapore again the next summer.
when we all came back from our trips, my mom told me how my grandma kept asking for me.... asking where i am and how come i didnt visit her.. and my mom also said my grandma kept talking about the past when i was little. my grandma kept repeating my name too.....
summer ended.... school started. fall and winter past. on Valentine's Day February 14th, my grandma died of cancer. i never got to say goodbye........

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Posted by HHxEliTE on 08-09-2002 07:27 AM:

i've been through alotta shiet with my parents... our relationship is like.. realie messed up.... and.... my life's messed up too.. buh ya know.. iSs SAll gOOd

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Posted by Ladi Jay on 08-09-2002 09:29 PM:

quote:
Originally posted by UnisMuiMui
she was my fave grandma. i was one of her favorites too. when i was little, i lived in singapore and both my parents worked so my grandma (my mom's adoptive mother) took care of me. i remember how she use to hold my hand and take me to the morning market places and buy me my fave breakfast! we've had many, many special memories.....
but when i moved to america, i kinda lost in touch wit her. 3 years ago i had a chance to go on a tour to Europe. i always wanted to go. i also had a chance to go singapore wit my mom and my sisters to visit my grandma who diagnosed wit ear cancer. it was a tough decision, but i chose to go to Europe since my mom said we'll go to singapore again the next summer.
when we all came back from our trips, my mom told me how my grandma kept asking for me.... asking where i am and how come i didnt visit her.. and my mom also said my grandma kept talking about the past when i was little. my grandma kept repeating my name too.....
summer ended.... school started. fall and winter past. on Valentine's Day February 14th, my grandma died of cancer. i never got to say goodbye........

omg... that's so sad... I'm sorrie... it's like, we never know that we're gonna lose them until we do... then we realize it...

anyways, the hardest thing for me was when my parents divorced and the events that occured after it... I was too young to know anything when my parents divorced, buh all the events that happened after the divorce, I remember... it's so hard for me... all the events that occured in my past is what makes me so emotional... that's why I can cry so damn easily... and it's one of the reasons why I love my dad so much... I remember very little, buh all those little things that I remember can still break me to pieces... my younger sisters don't remember as much as me, so they approach this situation a little differently... It's like, because of the divorce, I don't know who to talk to... see, I live with my dad and my mom is not around... and I don't really feel a connection to my stepmom, so it's hard to tell her things... like boys and growing up... so I depend on my sisters to talk to... sometimes, I wish I had my mom there to talk to, to share things with... I don't really know how it feels like to have a mom... and it's kinda sad for me... that's why I'm gonna learn from my parents mistake... I KNOW that I will be there for my children.. especially my daughters because I know what it's like to have to talk to my dad about growing up and going through puberty and all... it's so hard sometimes... I guess we all learn from our experiences and we try to avoid going through that situation again... well, in my case it's like that at least...

Posted by tea on 08-09-2002 10:10 PM:

my uncle's health is very poor. his eye sight is so bad. the doctors say that if his health goes on like this, then his eyes will eventually fall out. he divorced his wife, and lives to support my grandmother and his daughter. if hes gone, and my grandmother gone, whos gonna help raise my cousin? the doctor bills are piling up on him, we send him money every month so help him pay for them, but what we send are pennies compared to the total cost. i remember when i was young, id always used to play with him. he was my role model, my favorite uncle. and to hear that his health is bad...its makes you wonder if there really is a God.

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Posted by jini on 08-14-2002 05:58 PM:

well. technically, my parents are still married. but my mom n i just left the house. i remember that day my mom told me that we're never goin back to the house.

it was around noon and i left the house to meet my friend at the library. before i left, i saw my sister on the couch. she looked pretty sad, i couldn't even say 'bye' to her. i regret bein such a crappy sister to her.

but i met my friend at the library.. then we walked to another friend's house. my mom picked us up there. she took my friend home. then she told me that she just couldn't handle it anymore. n we've been livin outside the house from then on.

it's been almost 2 years since i saw my sister.. i don't want to think about it. because if i do, it just makes my heart break all over again.

there's not a day that goes by that i regret how i treated my sister. i lay awake at night thinking... what is she doing right now.. how is she... the curiousity just kills me. all i can do is pray that she'll be alright until the day i come for her.

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Posted by daNNy LuV 1TYM on 08-14-2002 10:59 PM:

wen i wuz little mai parents used to hav veri violent fights...i remember bein round 5-6 and hudling wit mai lil sister crying and crying listening to our parents yell and scream and break things and slap and hurt each othr. there'd be broken things lying all over the place and blood on their shirts. this went on almost every weekend and mai sister and i were powerless to stop it. sumtymz mai uncle wud cum over to try to resolve things, but it never worked. he just got mad and he wud leave and the fighting wud continue.

well, we all started going to church and things became a lot better we're a happi family now...but then mai dad wuz diagnosed wit hepatitis B and there wuz a period of time wen he wuz very, very weak and he cudn't do nething...it wuz so scary seeing my strong, handsome daddy whom i luved so much lying in bed sleeping all the time and waching him grow thinner and thinner. he finalli had to go to the hospital and he stayed there for a week. it wuz a very, very scary time for all of us....

wen i wuz 7 i broke mai arm. it wuz pretti scary for me (duh) but i had no idea how mai parents and family took it until a few yrs later and they were talkin bout how mai mom and granma stayed up all nite wen i wuz at the hospital and prayed and prayed. they were crying and were so scared...i wuzn't even that scared :huh:

Posted by jini on 08-16-2002 03:03 AM:

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Originally posted by daNNy LuV 1TYM
wen i wuz little mai parents used to hav veri violent fights...i remember bein round 5-6 and hudling wit mai lil sister crying and crying listening to our parents yell and scream and break things and slap and hurt each othr. there'd be broken things lying all over the place and blood on their shirts. this went on almost every weekend and mai sister and i were powerless to stop it. sumtymz mai uncle wud cum over to try to resolve things, but it never worked. he just got mad and he wud leave and the fighting wud continue.

well, we all started going to church and things became a lot better we're a happi family now...but then mai dad wuz diagnosed wit hepatitis B and there wuz a period of time wen he wuz very, very weak and he cudn't do nething...it wuz so scary seeing my strong, handsome daddy whom i luved so much lying in bed sleeping all the time and waching him grow thinner and thinner. he finalli had to go to the hospital and he stayed there for a week. it wuz a very, very scary time for all of us....

i feel ya... i'm glad that things became a lot better.

things can only get better from here.. right?

Posted by peruperu on 08-16-2002 05:50 AM:

when i was in grade 3 my parenst almost divorce..... they argue everyday.... and one time my dad took the passport and left..... i thought he's never coming back.... my mom cried all the time..... and all i can do is cry with my stuffed animals..... and from that on my personality changed dramatically......
even tho now they're still married..... i only see my dad bout once every 3 months and for a week........ well..... and i dun really like my dad.......

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Posted by PakChunhui1983 on 09-14-2002 07:20 PM:

Mine was when my old gf, not the one im dating now was shot by a gang member by accident when she was 17 years old. Me and her went thru everything together...i have a picture of her in my wallet.

Posted by Street RSX on 09-14-2002 08:05 PM:

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Originally posted by PakChunhui1983
Mine was when my old gf, not the one im dating now was shot by a gang member by accident when she was 17 years old. Me and her went thru everything together...i have a picture of her in my wallet.

oofz.. sorrie to hear mann.. ouch thas sum ruffness fer yoo... damnz.. that seriousli sukz... prollie went thru sum hardd tymz rite?? sorrie to hear bout..

Posted by PakChunhui1983 on 09-15-2002 05:42 AM:

quote:
Originally posted by Street RSX

oofz.. sorrie to hear mann.. ouch thas sum ruffness fer yoo... damnz.. that seriousli sukz... prollie went thru sum hardd tymz rite?? sorrie to hear bout..

Heres the whole story. I don't care if i spill the truth because its all in the past.

Me and my childhood friend knew each other since we were babies. No joke, our parents know each other back in korea. Anyway, we went to the same church, schools and same vacation every summer, which was korea. She was like a sister and a close friend. When we were 17 and before summer, she asked me on the phone if i wanted to try to visit her uncle that lived in Pomona , CA. So i told her sure. I remember visiting her uncle there and we were staying for a 3 week period. Then i remember her uncle telling us to walk with my cousin to the korean grocery store in downtown to pick up some food. I don't know if the bullet was accident or meant for her cousin, but some asian guy..maybe chinese or korean drove by and shot random at us. I just stood there with my mouth open and my cousin was " Get down you idiot" and then i saw my gf had been shot in the stomach and thigh. She was ****ing motionless. I remember being in the hospital crying like a baby...while her uncle and cousin was trying not to cry also. Later that night, we told her parents and they flew right to pomona that day and came to the hospital...She was dead at 5:32 am.

After the funeral, i came back to charlotte and helped her parents pack her belongings. Her parents decided to move back to korea and not return to the US , since they didn't want to be reminded her their daughter's death in california.

about 3 days after the shooting, they found the guy. Turns out he was a gang member named Tony Cheng who was to shoot at her cousin, but shot the wrong person. As of right now, hes serving a life term with no chance of parole.

While attending college the following year in the fall, i saw this korean girl, who will become my new gf, in my math class. She looks exactly like my old gf...and same personality. Maybe it was a sign from god or some shit. Its been 3 years since that incident. Im not going back to Ca in the future because of this.

Posted by ibabiExbOrai on 09-15-2002 05:57 AM:

ahh...sorry bout wuh happened kevin...>.< hope u doin aiighZz...dat muss be really hard for u....nothing lyke datz ever happened to me..but Godz alwayz wid us...to help pull us throo times like these~ i feel so lucky to not have experienced something like that....the most hardest thing for me..im not sure...probably when mah grandpa wuhz siCk..i wuhz so worrieD..buh compared to all these otha storiezz....wow...

Posted by PakChunhui1983 on 09-15-2002 06:44 AM:

thanks for the comfort. :satisfy:

Things with my current gf are not going well either...

Posted by Crazydeb8ter on 09-15-2002 06:58 AM:

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Originally posted by PakChunhui1983

While attending college the following year in the fall, i saw this korean girl, who will become my new gf, in my math class. She looks exactly like my old gf...and same personality. Maybe it was a sign from god or some shit. Its been 3 years since that incident. Im not going back to Ca in the future because of this.

Damn, im sorry about what happened...that is too sad to comprehend :sad:

uh the girl you referenced above isn't your present gf eh?

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Posted by ibabiExbOrai on 09-15-2002 04:02 PM:

hehe npnp~ dont let the past bring u down....although it may be really hard to go on..everyone keep ur chinz up~ :]

Posted by PakChunhui1983 on 09-15-2002 05:24 PM:

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Originally posted by Crazydeb8ter

Damn, im sorry about what happened...that is too sad to comprehend :sad:

uh the girl you referenced above isn't your present gf eh?

She is. Came from New York. You know how those New York korean girls are..

Posted by bigChubuff on 09-15-2002 09:23 PM:

my dad died 2 years ago

Posted by UnisMuiMui on 09-16-2002 03:10 PM:

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Originally posted by bigChubuff
my dad died 2 years ago

oohh sorry to hear dat... if u dun mind sharing, how did he die?

to PakChunhui1983, sorry to hear abour ur ex-gf...

stay strong!!

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