We’d been going through this routine of me asking if he wanted to get tutored next week or so, and him telling me he wanted to watch a movie for about a month when I realized that maybe he never really wanted a tutor. Yes call me naïve, dense whatever. But when I realized this, I didn’t really mind, I had grown fond of him and his friends. In fact I was glad to have some company, a lot of my other friends, ditched me a long while ago, calling me a player for dumping all those guys. I brushed it off, thinking if they were true friends, they wouldn’t care if I was a player anyway. I didn’t even consider my self a player either. Bleh.
Chilhyun and I were in starbucks, sitting side by side, staring out the window; me sipping my white chocolate mocha frappucino (my favorite) and him sipping his latte when he popped a question out of nowhere.
“JiHye, why’d you date all those guys and then dump them so quickly?”
I didn’t know how to answer his question. I mean, I knew what the answer was, but I didn’t want to tell Chilhyun, in case he’d think badly of me. While I had befriended him, I had gone out with his friend, Junjin and then broken up with him a week later. I remained a hi-bye friend with Junjin while remaining close friends with Chilhyun. He was one of my few good friends, someone I had grown used to and had grown to trust and need. I decided to tell him the truth, I mean, if he really was a good friend, he wouldn’t care right?
I shrugged my shoulders and replied, “Well, I’m still looking for the perfect guy…
I mean, I have to find out what the guys like right? So I go out with the guy, to give him a chance, if he’s not the perfect man that I want, then I’ll break up with him. Chilhyun, don’t use the word ‘dump’ it makes me feel like such a bitch”, I answered him while punching him lightly on the shoulder.
He didn’t hit me back like he usually would have; in fact he looked deep in thought.
“Chilhyun, what’s up? What you thinking bout?”
Chilhyun looked up, and into my eyes, almost as though he wanted me to figure out the answer to my own question; I looked into his eyes, and couldn’t look away. We sat there staring at each other, and it was then that I felt this warmth in me, tingling me that I had never felt before.
“JiHye…”
I blinked when he said my name, the moment interrupted.
“JiHye, what is your perfect man? Can’t you settle for someone that loves you? What else matters when a man loves you?”
I saw there thinking about what he said, no longer staring at his eyes but trying not to stare directly at him. I couldn’t take my eyes away from him though.
“Well…”
I took a deep breath, ready to tell him all the little things that the perfect man would have.
My words came out in a jumble, and I don’t think Chilhyun even heard them.
“JiHye, will you give me a chance?”
I was so unsure, I mean, this was Chilhyun, my best friend practically, here he was asking me for a chance… did he mean that he wanted me to be his girlfriend..?
What was it that I felt when we looked into each others eyes? Sigh, this is sounding incredibly sappy, but I couldn’t help but hear voices inside of me shouting ‘Say yes!’.
“Yes!”
I shouted, annoyed with my conscience. Oops. I think I scared him.
As soon as he heard my reply, Chilhyun cupped my face, and said to me, “JiHye, I’m so happy!”
I rubbed my cheeks and said “I’m glad you’re happy Chilhyun, but now my cheeks feel all hot!”
Chilhyun laughed. He pulled me outside, and like little kids we jumped around in the fresh snow.
Wow, I feel so happy, yet Chilhyun isn’t all that my ‘perfect man’ was supposed to be, I felt so light though, and I actually looked forward to the future.
It’s been a year, I’m still with Chilhyun, Haha, surprising? I don’t know what exactly it is about him that kept me with him for so… so long. Well, long in my standards haha. He’s made me a happy girl, all the little things he does for me, they make me feel so special, and although he doesn’t fit the description of my ‘perfect man’ I love him to bits.
For our one year anniversary, we had already decided we didn’t want to give each other anything, yes call us a weird couple haha, just one of those things that make our relationship special I guess. We decided to go back to the small starbucks where he asked me out. Where he had asked me why I had to have a ‘perfect man’.
I came early, and when I saw him enter, I ran up to him and hugged him, and he wrapped his arms around me.
“Happy 1 year anniversary babe!”
“Mmm, I love you JiHye, hun, you smell like coffee”
I stuck my tongue out at him, “Well you smell like sweat, psh, what did you do, run here or something?”
We sat down side by side, staring out the window, and played around a little bit, sipping our coffee. I leaned my head on his shoulder. Like he said - ‘perfect fit’. We were the perfect heights where I could lean my head on his shoulder and be comfortable, where he could wrap his arms around me from behind and I would fit just under his chin. I smiled as I remembered all the times we spent together.
Just sitting there in a comfortable silence we stared at the snow, I smiled to myself, I felt so serene, so light, I couldn’t believe how lucky I was, to have a guy like Chilhyun.
“JiHye…”
“Hmm?”
“Lets go outside!”
Chilhyun had this ridiculously cute smile on his face as he grabbed my hand and we headed out of starbucks, into the snow again.
Chilhyun wrapped his arms around me as we stood in open, snowflakes lightly falling from the sky. We were in our own little world, the music surrounded me and I realized I had found my perfect man. Chilhyun wasn’t exactly super smart, or passionate about cooking or something but he made me laugh, he made me happy, and most of all he made me feel special. It was all the little things that mattered, and Chilhyun was all that, he was my everything, my perfect man.
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i did this while i was bored at home... got the idea while listening to shinhwa' song 'perfect man'
hehe
please tell me what you thought of it everyone
Last edited by lovedontloveme on 04-17-2002 at 09:26 PM
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