My first marking period ended a little while ago.. and report cards came in. My father saw it, and he was disgusted at what he saw. The lowest grade on that report card was a 91, which was in precalc. He was so angry with me that he threatened to not pay for my college tuition. All I could do was just stand there and take the verbal abuse. I could see why he was mad, though. I am kind of a party girl, and I go out with my friends on weekends. I still take school seriously, and I don't get into any trouble. My father puts so much pressure on me to do well in school.. I get home around 5-6 staying after for clubs and community service. On top of that, because my parents are divorced, I get home and I have to make dinner for him and my brother.. Not always, but at least once a week.

Sometimes, I just feel so much pressure that I want to collapse.. give up. I have a feeling my father wants me to do well in high school- go to college, and get a good job in order to support him when he's older, and my brother. I feel like a tool built in order to pay for everything. I keep telling myself its not true.. but with all this pressure that he's putting on me, I keep doubting that its for my own sake and happiness. My father never noticed my limits. I've never really been good in math, but he keeps pushing me to that point. My limit. He doesn't see that I have limits. The limits where no matter how hard I try, I cannot break.. And the worst thing is, my father is the type of person that thinks he's always right, and blocks out everybody else's opinions and ideas. So I'll never get this message across to him.

I really don't know what I'm really asking for here.. Just some words of encourgement..? Thanks in advance.

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This may or may not be encouraging, but I've gone through worse than that in high school

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sorry to hear that. It's amazing how much pressure parents put on kids these days but obviously it's no big surprise.

I really have no real advice for you other than to look forward to your future. Obviously you seem to have a bright future ahead of you. Finish h.s., go to college and have the time of your life there. Cuz thats where the real life experiences happen. Trust me. I know. I'm old.

Oh yeah. Your father threatening to take away your tuition.. is b.s. trust me. I know. I'm old.

Unless you truly f*ck up. d=)

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wow. your dad was mad at you for a 91? that's insane. even though life may suck right now, really, the only thing you can do is to keep slogging through these next few years. just remember not to give up on your family, because they obviously need you right now. don't worry though. things will probably get better once you're out on your own, because then you'll only have to worry about yourself and no one else. so don't fret - just keep your head up (listen to tupac!)

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i did a lot worse than you when was in high school. and im not talking about 3.0 gpa worse. im talking about almost flunking high school bad

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i did a lot worse than you when was in high school. and im not talking about 3.0 gpa worse. im talking about almost flunking high school bad

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I'm not surprised that you almost flunked school. Most people on drugs do. Well at least ur user name gives me that impression!

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Sometimes, I just feel so much pressure that I want to collapse.. give up.

I know EXACTLY how you feel.... My advice? Just keep on keeping on!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The worst time to give up is when you feel like giving up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Keep that in mind and when ur successful, you'll remember me.

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[QUOTE]Originally posted by j3ss
[B]I get home and I have to make dinner for him and my brother.. Not always, but at least once a week.

To tell you, that's not bad. I have to make all THREE MEALS!!!!!!!!!! Breakfast, Lunch AND dinner!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not only for myself but for my entire family which includes: My father (stepfather really), mother and my little brother.

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I have a feeling my father wants me to do well in high school- go to college, and get a good job in order to support him when he's older, and my brother. QUOTE]

So tell me, which father WOULDN'T want that?

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. My father never noticed my limits. I've never really been good in math, but he keeps pushing me to that point. My limit. He doesn't see that I have limits. The limits where no matter how hard I try, I cannot break.. And the worst thing is, my father is the type of person that thinks he's always right, and blocks out everybody else's opinions and ideas. So I'll never get this message across to him.


My dad is EXACTLY that way. He never notices my limits!!!!
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He pushes them soooooooooo far that I have to cry sometimes. Yeah. I know what you're talking about when you say you're dad is the type that he thinks he's always right. That's my dad right there! To tell you the truth in my situation though, most of the times he IS!!!!!!!!!!!

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He pushes them soooooooooo far that I have to cry sometimes. Yeah. I know what you're talking about when you say you're dad is the type that he thinks he's always right. That's my dad right there! To tell you the truth in my situation though, most of the times he IS!!!!!!!!!!!

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when it comes to a situation with you, usually the other person is right it seems.

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That's only if the situation is between my mom and I or my dad and I. With my peers, more than 95% of the time I'm the right one!

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98% of statistics are made up, and if you made it up, i am thinking the probability tends to 1.

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98% of statistics are made up, and if you made it up, i am thinking the probability tends to 1.

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What I said was true. I don't expect "psycho" to believe me.

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really, your ability to precisely quantify reality is top notch then. (YEAH!!! it sure is!!)

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really, your ability to precisely quantify reality is top notch then. (YEAH!!! it sure is!!)

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What I was really saying was that crazy people don't know any better. They don't know what to believe.....

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What I was really saying was that crazy people don't know any better. They don't know what to believe.....

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What I was really saying was that crazy people don't know any better. They don't know what to believe.....

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Wow, prejudice against brown people, prejudice against the mentally different. Crazy people don't "know any better." I recommend you read into mental health a little, your opinions about normativity is gross.

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Just because I had stated that crazy people don't know any better doesn't necessarily means that I'm predujice against the mentally different! You're actually forcing you're conclusions to fit your view of what you think I'm saying.

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[QUOTE]Originally posted by Alchemist
[B]What is that supposed to mean? Crazy people don't know any better? Listen, I bet the average "crazy" person knows a hell of a lot more than you. Exactly how many "crazy" people have you encountered?

To make the list look short: a TRUCKLOAD!

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