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[long fic]~HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE~
 dunt be surprised if this sux, all mah ficcies do.
Jinusean
How Deep is Your Love
그 토록 해맑았던 너의 그 미소 까만 먹구름에 쌓인
내게로 살며시 내게 다가온 그대와의 노래로 우린
하나라는 느낌을 사랑은 언제나 내 맘속에 그저
태지 말대로
너와 시간들 속에�_ 포근해 지는 것
everyday to the J and I keeps it hot can you get with that
소중한 넌 나의 ticket 힘들던 나의 삶에 고통을 잊게
세상에�_ 무엇보다도 내가 너를 좋아하게 된 이유
너무나 긴 방황의 길 그곳으로 내게 손을 내민 너의
손길
그대 왜 내게 이렇게 늦게 다가왔나 사랑해요 my
love song
I know your eyes in the morning sun I feel you touch me
in the pouring rain and the moment that you wondered
far from me I wanna feel you in my arms again
how deep is your love
너만을 간직한 내 가슴만�_ 커다란 슬픔 영원한
것이 될까
너의 마음 변하진 않았을까 얼마나 많은 사랑이
남아있나
불안한 지금 이 모든게 쓸데 없는 고민들 이젠
믿음만이
내 모든 아픔을 다 지워졌나 언제나 그건 반드시
절대로
변치 않듯이 널 지켜줄게 너의 두 눈속에�_
살아갈게
언제나 같이 할게 너와 하나 맞나 내 인생에�_ 사는
이유
하나 빛이 돼 나를 밝혀 줘 또 부숴 져 나를 위해�_
혹시 다른 곳 다시 태어�_대도 오직 내겐 너 하나
and you come to me on summer breeze keep me warm
in your love than you softly leave and its me you need to
show
how deep is your love how deep is your love
how deep is your love I really need to learn
cause we're living in a world of fools breaking us down
when they all should let us be we belong to you and me
you hole me the key to my heart uh yo and
we can never be apart boo we'll ride dip and dive take you
to a place as I'm by your side uh two hearts falling deep
inside uh from start let me make you glide cause you got me
open wide and you may not think I care for you
when you know down inside that I really do and it's me
you need to show (how deep is your love) I really need to
know
cause we're living in a world of fools breaking us down
when they all should let us be we belong to you and me
I believe in you
Why is it that the words of this song are the words of my heart?
How deep is your love?
CHAPTER ONE
밚ora! Wait!� Jinu screamed as he watched her figure disappear into the night. Frustrated, he kicked the wall and ran his fingers through his hair. Mara walked out and smirked. 밓inu, when are you going to learn? She doesn뭪 love you꿌 do꿳ow come back to bed�.� she purred in his ear. But Jinu shook his head. He knew that Lora loved him�..he knew that he just had to give her some time to relax꿤ool off.
밠ara, shouldn뭪 you go home?� he asked angrily.
밒n your arms, I뭢 always home,� she ran her fingers around his face and smiled wickedly. He pushed her away from him and walked into his house, locking the door. Mara smiled, unbuttoned her shirt a bit and added some eyes drops into her eyes, real tears and the drops dripped down her face marvelously and she walked to her apartment that was besides Lora뭩.
Lora was, as always, sitting on the front bench. She gave one look to the teary face and the messy shirt and gave Mara a hug, 밓inu뭩 sick, don뭪 worry about him,� she said sympathetically. 밐-He tried to-� Mara lied as she sobbed great big tears. Lora patted her back.
Lora꿾hy the hell are you so gullible. Act like this and in WEEKS Jinu will be mine�. Mara thought viciously.
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Lora뭩 brother, Sean, were very much a like. She had died her long black hair into a honey blonde and she was very agile, dancing was her major. She had huge brown eyes and small pink lips.
밐ey Lora Wassup?� Sean asked as he gave his little sister a hug, 밒-I뭢 fine.� She stared at the ground.
밆on뭪 tell me�.Uhh�.something to do with Jinu?� he guessed and Lora nodded.
밒 just can뭪 forgive him, even though I want to, and now these꿻hings�.keep happening and it뭩 making it harder�.
~flash back~
밚ora you don뭪 understand! Mara came in while I was drunk!� Jinu pleaded.
밯hy should I believe that shit? Why were you both naked? Huh? Why was the door left open? Huh? Why the hell were you drunk when you said you뭗 wait for me!� Lora said disinterestedly.
밐ow do I know! And�.Sean said you didn뭪 want to see me so I didn뭪 wait for you! Is that what you wanted to hear! I couldn뭪 stand the thought that you didn뭪 want to be with me that I went out and got drunk! Is that what you wanted to hear!� Jinu screamed.
밚et뭩 take a break from this,� Lora said softly.
밊ine, let뭩 go get something to eat,� he said, running his finger through his black hair.
밡o�.I mean let뭩 break up�..� she whispered.
~flash back over~
밚ora, go to bed early tonight. Tomorrow we have a big day ahead of us, so scat!� Sean said, pushing his sister toward the stairs. She smiled and went up. Sean gave one last look, making sure she was gone before dialing the phone.
밠ara, great job. Yep�.I know�.just keep getting closer to Jinu�..yea�..My sister should meet someone better then him�.I know what you mean. Hehehe�.c ya then.� Sean hung up the phone. Lora�.you뭨e in pain now�.but forget Jinu and see the guys I set you up with, they뭨e all better then Jinu. Just move on little sister�..Sean thought.
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Lora was dressed in black training pants, a silver tank top and her long hair was tied in a pony tail and she had on a baseball cap that was turned around so it stuck out to the side instead of the front. Her face was clean and free of makeup except for lip gloss and she had on black Adidas sneakers.
밢ppa! Hurry up!� she screamed up the steps. Her brother bounded down in sweats and a t-shirt. A beanie cap on his head and a towel slung over his shoulder. They grabbed their identical training bags and ran to her BMW which was parked out front.
밃re you sure you뭨e ready for the big leagues little one?� Sean asked with a grin.
밒뭢 WAYYYYYYYYYY ahead of you, you freak of a brother,� She said, Sean made a face and they grabbed the bags out of the trunk when they were in front of the studio.
밳o Yo Yo, hey gurliez꿾atz new!� Lora said as she slapped high fives with Hyunni and Izzy.
밨eady girls?� Hyunni asked. They were all dressed like Lora, right to the baseball cap and they turned on the music.
After what seemed like hours of dancing Lora walked over to get her water bottle from the bag but when she opened it she found that all the contents were her brothers. The bags were switched! She ran frantically through the halls and found her brother.
밢ppa, the bags were-
밚ora?� a soft voice said behind her, a hand touched her shoulder and Lora almost melted at this. Jinu.
밢ppa, the bags were switched,� she swapped the bags and pushed Jinu out of her way.
밯AIT! LORA!�
He pulled her elbow and slammed her against the wall, the studio door had long closed and they were the only ones in the hallway.
밯hat the hell do you want Jinu-shi?� she said, cursing even though she had tried to stay formal.
밓inu-shi? What ever happened to Jinu Oppa?� he asked with sad eyes.
밐e slept with a whore,� she pushed away from him and started down the hall.
밆o you still love me?� he asked. She didn뭪 turn around. She was paralyzed by this question and he continued.
밒 still love you. I think about you day and night, night and day. I dream about you�.I remember every single thing about you. The way your left eye crinkles when you smile, the way you eat you Oreos, making a little whole in the cookie and licking the icing and then eating it whole. I remember how you used to make sure I had everything in order, I think about the way you used to talk to me, sarcastic yet loving. I remember뀉
밪top.� she whispered. She remembered everything about him but she couldn뭪 say that. She couldn뭪 say that she wanted to feel his touch again, that she wanted to hear his voice again, she couldn뭪 give into her heart, her mind said firmly. 밒�.I don뭪 love you anymore,� she lied and walked away. He grabbed her again and she turned around finally and felt his lips on hers. She wanted to dissolve into his arms like she always had but just thinking about how another girl had had her lips and hands all over his body sickened her. She pulled away and ran through the dark halls, fighting back tears.
I guess you really don뭪 love me�.. Jinu thought.
Why aren뭪 you running after me? Why aren뭪 you holding me back! Are you so dumb that you can뭪 see me crying Jinu!�.I need you뀉 Lora thought painfully as she slammed the training room door. Her friends glanced at her teary face and she crumpled onto the ground in a crying heap.
밯hat뭩 wrong Lora?� Izzy asked worriedly.
밒�..I miss him뀉I need him�.You guys don뭪 know how hard it is�..to hear his voice, feel his hand and lips�.it뭩 too much to ignore,� Lora sobbed.
밓inu?� Hyunni asked timidly. Lora nodded and they hugged her briefly.
No matter how hard she tried, how long she endured, her heart always ached for Jinu. But her mind had cut off their connection to the heart and mind and she had to fight the pain in her chest and go with her mind뭩 logical ways. Jinu�..I want you뀉.Lora thought sadly.
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~cHeRrY hYuNnI bUnNi~
Am I looking in at me? or looking out at you?
is it my reflection, or a window to my fantasy?
Is it my dreams and lies, or my love and peace?
Is it that i love you. or love love itself?
sarang hae yo...
H.O.T.
J.T.L.
Kangta
hee Jun
~CHOTI COME BACK TO US~
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05-02-2002 01:07 PM
